I am having an awful night again. I feel like I should just lie on bed and get some good sleep that would make me feel better tomorrow morning but I know that it will almost be impossible for that to happen. You see, I am a thinker. I think. My mind never rests and its literally insane. Especially after what just gravely disappointed me and left me upset, I need lots of luck to fall asleep. Oh dear... why am I in such a situation again? I feel like I just need a bestfriend hug with good songs that would cheer me up. Thus, the old old old songs on play. I love alternative rock srsly.

" Yes I appreciate you. Of course I do. You are my best. The best I have so far. Whatever I want and need you give me and no, I am not referring to anything else that could be bought with the cash in your pocket. You give me an everlasting amount of love I guess I can never find that easily in my life. Its love that others envy and love that make hearts weep. Love that is just too pure. If I could, I wish a lifetime spent with you immediately because I know that even when it rains heavily, you'll be there waiting for me with an umbrella in your hand. If things ever get nasty, you will be there to render me your support. Somehow, you just seem to be it all. I feel like I am a rocket on fire, always on the go to achieve a further step. But then again, you always hold me back in your arms to make sure I never go astray. I guess you are one of the best. "